i was texting a fren complaining that i have not received any call for an intw from nvpc when my conscience pricked me hard with ' hey havent u forgotten, its God in control, not u so dun be so bloody prideful'.
anyway dinner with emman n vic was tremendously fun, i seldom laughed this much n this loud. vic is still the same with his funny facial expressions and crude humor. emman looks happy but i think he is happier when he is with someone.*
* u know who u r so just come clean, damn it!
dharma flew us kite last minute so we gonna punish him on the 23rd.
i had forwarded my resume to vic as requested, cos he is now working for a recruitment firm. guess who his client is. nus. ah hah!
sometimes i do enjoy what im doing, and its not that im desperate to leave. but looking at it long term, MR doesnt pay well so its best to go b4 the country slips into a recession.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
ur unbelievable
the new fc is really pathetic, first she cant do simple math and read costings, thus resulting me in emailing my bosses a memo dripping with sarcasm. then now due to some procedural error, she has caused some of us a delay in receiving our monthly payment. honestly how can anyone screw that up? really.
she aint well liked , n i suspect this incident would have tightened the noose about her head.
but what a nice SUV she drives until i remembered something i read in a book somewhere, money dun buy u personality.
nicely said.
she aint well liked , n i suspect this incident would have tightened the noose about her head.
but what a nice SUV she drives until i remembered something i read in a book somewhere, money dun buy u personality.
nicely said.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
if u want to, say it now
my boss told me she has been applying for other jobs, initially i dint know how to react or what to say, i nodded after a few seconds. then she told me if im doing the same thing.
believe me, her post is not an enviable one, if i make mistakes, i still have her for buffer but when u r at the top, things get nasty (ie finger pointing when projects stuff up )during the fw meeting and i can see her looking like someone hit her on the head with a fish.
another colleague just fcuked up her job, big time. BIG TIME! she is leaving next month thus she slipped into a dun-give-a-rat-ass attitude, on friday she took MC and the whole fw team has to step in and clear her crap. we reliased to our horror, as we pieced the puzzles together, she simply dun care at all. what the interviewers know and what was communicated to us was 2 different matters.
'dr ho' took over one of the outdoor project, 'sister neo' took over another outdoor project wheras 'babe' and i helped to supervise her already dying cati project which simply refuses to move.
i like to think im not a harsh person by nature by when i see her coming in the morning asking others why they kept calling on fri til she could not take a nap, i had an urge to bitch slap her.
it breaks my heart cos i know she can work if she puts her mind onto it.
not wanting to own up to yr mistakes is bad enuff, blaming others for not allowing u 2 zzz really tops the cake.
was that what moses felt when he led the people outta egypt?
are humans this forgetful/ungrateful by nature?
believe me, her post is not an enviable one, if i make mistakes, i still have her for buffer but when u r at the top, things get nasty (ie finger pointing when projects stuff up )during the fw meeting and i can see her looking like someone hit her on the head with a fish.
another colleague just fcuked up her job, big time. BIG TIME! she is leaving next month thus she slipped into a dun-give-a-rat-ass attitude, on friday she took MC and the whole fw team has to step in and clear her crap. we reliased to our horror, as we pieced the puzzles together, she simply dun care at all. what the interviewers know and what was communicated to us was 2 different matters.
'dr ho' took over one of the outdoor project, 'sister neo' took over another outdoor project wheras 'babe' and i helped to supervise her already dying cati project which simply refuses to move.
i like to think im not a harsh person by nature by when i see her coming in the morning asking others why they kept calling on fri til she could not take a nap, i had an urge to bitch slap her.
it breaks my heart cos i know she can work if she puts her mind onto it.
not wanting to own up to yr mistakes is bad enuff, blaming others for not allowing u 2 zzz really tops the cake.
was that what moses felt when he led the people outta egypt?
are humans this forgetful/ungrateful by nature?
Sunday, July 6, 2008
maybe, or perhaps, there is no such thing as coincidence or luck
i got 2 interesting incidents to relate:
last tue i was at home still feeling grumpy when i decided to flip thru the recruit from the previous sat papers, i saw a full page ad from NUS and went online to find out more about the job scope.
the next day, a fren* forwarded me a pdf file which was originally sent from her sister, telling me that i might perhaps find something interesting. it was exactly the same advert i saw the previous nite, i would like to conclude it is not coincidence.
2 days ago on sat, i again flipped thru the sat recruit and saw something i fancy: a job at nvpc. the job scope is ok, location in town, and best of all its a non profit organisation. good! cos im a bit flustered working for companies who care only for the damn margin.
anyway the next day during bible study, i asked my mates there to pray for me; pray that God may open a window for me soon. i briefly told them abt this nvpc post and my cell leader remarked that one of the directors there is in the same church. apparently there is another member from my church working there too.
whoa.
that can help matters a lot, really.
so after bible study is over, i asked my leader whether he could introduce me to him next sun, he said ok and after going online, i learnt that the director is not from HR but still hold a powerful post in the organisation. its not my intention to suck up next sun but i do want to find out more abt the place
n hopefully he would be impressed by my intellect. # joke, intended.
the happy gang* was surprised when i told them i had applied for the govt post, when i talked about the job scope, they were going ' no no, its good u dint get in cos i have a fren who is there n he/she is now ... blah blah'.
*i think its God's way of sending human angels along my way to encourage, n to pick me up when im down.
moreover, the verse that stuck me deeply yest was from Romans 8: 31; if God is with me, who can be against me?
how apt.
n that reflects how faithless i am 4 the past one wk.
last tue i was at home still feeling grumpy when i decided to flip thru the recruit from the previous sat papers, i saw a full page ad from NUS and went online to find out more about the job scope.
the next day, a fren* forwarded me a pdf file which was originally sent from her sister, telling me that i might perhaps find something interesting. it was exactly the same advert i saw the previous nite, i would like to conclude it is not coincidence.
2 days ago on sat, i again flipped thru the sat recruit and saw something i fancy: a job at nvpc. the job scope is ok, location in town, and best of all its a non profit organisation. good! cos im a bit flustered working for companies who care only for the damn margin.
anyway the next day during bible study, i asked my mates there to pray for me; pray that God may open a window for me soon. i briefly told them abt this nvpc post and my cell leader remarked that one of the directors there is in the same church. apparently there is another member from my church working there too.
whoa.
that can help matters a lot, really.
so after bible study is over, i asked my leader whether he could introduce me to him next sun, he said ok and after going online, i learnt that the director is not from HR but still hold a powerful post in the organisation. its not my intention to suck up next sun but i do want to find out more abt the place
n hopefully he would be impressed by my intellect. # joke, intended.
the happy gang* was surprised when i told them i had applied for the govt post, when i talked about the job scope, they were going ' no no, its good u dint get in cos i have a fren who is there n he/she is now ... blah blah'.
*i think its God's way of sending human angels along my way to encourage, n to pick me up when im down.
moreover, the verse that stuck me deeply yest was from Romans 8: 31; if God is with me, who can be against me?
how apt.
n that reflects how faithless i am 4 the past one wk.
Friday, July 4, 2008
maybe, maybe not, maybe _ urself
is it my imagination that this place is quickly moving down a slippery road or why r the 2 poor bastards who are selling their organs the only ones being punished?
what abt the buyers, aint they the ones creating a demand for this black market business?
spare me the talk abt ethnics, if u wanna play, play fair. but i doubt we are.
those 2 guys: one earning $120 and the other $140 a month, that is barely enough to feed their families. why the heck are we prosecuting them? what is the crime they have done? what good does it do when they get thrown into prisons even if its a 'light term'?
why isnt there any mention of the buyers in the newspapers articles?
what abt the buyers, aint they the ones creating a demand for this black market business?
spare me the talk abt ethnics, if u wanna play, play fair. but i doubt we are.
those 2 guys: one earning $120 and the other $140 a month, that is barely enough to feed their families. why the heck are we prosecuting them? what is the crime they have done? what good does it do when they get thrown into prisons even if its a 'light term'?
why isnt there any mention of the buyers in the newspapers articles?
why do i always keep apologising?
enough is enough, i have gotten sick n tired of my bitching and whining. no one likes wussy people, so i shall quit being wallowing in self pity n turn up a notch in my job hunting. just sent out 2; nvpc n smu. heh.
turn your anger into lust!*
* from Big Machine- goo goo dolls. i love that line, makes me wonder whether im some potential serial rapist.
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turn your anger into lust!*
* from Big Machine- goo goo dolls. i love that line, makes me wonder whether im some potential serial rapist.
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008
it still hurts a little when i think about it
im helping my colleague to run his project for the next 2 days, poor sod, i can understand and had been under the pressure he is facing now. i guess if anyone from my dept is gonna leave, it may v well be him. he is almost there, at the threshold; one more push and he would flip and give everybody the finger.
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dinner yest was fun yet solemn, i realised im more fcuked up than i really care to admit. after pondering about it, i think i know why im angsty most of the time. - disappointment; with myself, with people/work/colleagues around me, with my soul destroying job, with my failure (or lack of direction) to land myself a better career.
i loathe myself for being a doormat most of the time and i loathe the fact i find it hard to stand up for myself and when i do, i would regret saying things which i shouldnt had, which i shouldnt feel bad verbalising it in the first place.
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dinner yest was fun yet solemn, i realised im more fcuked up than i really care to admit. after pondering about it, i think i know why im angsty most of the time. - disappointment; with myself, with people/work/colleagues around me, with my soul destroying job, with my failure (or lack of direction) to land myself a better career.
i loathe myself for being a doormat most of the time and i loathe the fact i find it hard to stand up for myself and when i do, i would regret saying things which i shouldnt had, which i shouldnt feel bad verbalising it in the first place.
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